Not YET

It's Tuesday! BLOG DAY!!!!

It's also the last day of July. That means the Ornament fundraiser ends today, as does the Pampered Chef fundraiser. HOWEVER if you're wanting to order some PC, let me know! Tiffany said that's fine and I'll still get the profit from it! She's so sweet!
If you ordered ornaments they will be available very soon, we had to order some more vinyl (some colors went FAST) and that should be in this week!

Tomorrow is the first day of August. That means Faith goes back to school soon. That means the Crawl for Cancer is this month. That means my wonderful friend Ashley will be here in a few short weeks, as will the amazing Jamie S. They will both be here during a time I will most certainly be stressed/scared/nervous.... The week/weekend before our appointment with our RE!!!! I will need them (and all of you!) during that time, and I'm so excited they'll be here!!


With all of the IVF fundraising excitement that has been going on, I haven't talked much about our cancer journey. I'm so sorry for that. And TODAY that changes.



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I can't remember exactly where I left off.... I think around Thanksgiving? So that's where I'll start back up.
The week after Thanksgiving, things went back to our new "normal." Meaning it was time for chemo again, and doctor's appointments... And that dreaded chemo pump!
The weeks in December seemed to all blur together and that was because some days were absolutely miserable for Danny. When your husband is miserable, it's hard to stay positive and cheery. Even when it's your favorite time of the year!! But I did my best, and so did Danny!

The cold intolerance was staying longer and longer after all the treatments, to the point where Danny never got a break. On top of that, his sinus infection came back with a vengeance.

Since everything sort of blurred together those weeks, only certain things still stand out to me today.

We met the radiologist around the time of Danny's last chemo treatment (of 2009). My impression of him was basically: "Whhhaaatttt????"
He was nice, don't get me wrong. But he wasn't the personable type of doctor we had  become so accustomed to. When speaking to us, he was always looking down.
Hello? Hello doctor? We're up here! Oh hi, there are your eyes.
For what that doctor lacked in bedside manner (even though there were no beds that I saw) he made up for in knowledge. This doctor went on and on and on about colon cancer, the chances of it coming back, why radiation was necessary.... And the all important fertility preservation question.
"Do you two have kids together?" Not YET.
"Nope." 
"Do you two WANT kids together?" Uhhh DUH.
"Yes we do. We banked already."
"Oh you banked?" That's what he just said, sir...
"Yes, before chemo started."
"Well that's good, that's good. Then we'll start with radiation on January __. Let's give you a tour..." A tour? Of what?
We were led through the "clinic" inside the hospital. A nice waiting area we'd already experienced. A room with lockers for your belongings while you're getting shot with a laser. Comforting. And then there is was... A machine that looked like it belonged in a movie. Huge. White. Cold-looking if that makes sense at all. It was daunting. Oh, and there's a bed. Bed being a questionable term.
"So you'll lay up here. And this will find the tattoos that you'll have..." Tattoos? What? " Then the machine will move according to those dots. And you'll receive your radiation. It'll only take a few minutes. The longest part of this whole thing will be getting changed in and out of your clothes." So weird... All of this....
"And that's about it. Here is ____, she will set you up with your first appointment. That will be to get your tattoos. Then your daily appointments will be every day at the time of your choice. Most people do this first thing in the morning, before work." That would be PERFECT. "And I think we're done here. See you soon."
Appointments were set, and we walked out of the same hospital where we went when we found Danny's tumor. It felt like closing one door, and opening another. One half of chemo was done. It was time to move on to the constant chemo along with daily radiation. There was a light at the end of the tunnel. Tiny, but there. And we were walking out of that hospital feeling entirely different than we had the LAST time we'd walked out... Dazed, confused,  scared... Those were all feelings that were in our past. We beat the cancer together and everything the few months prior and the months ahead were all just preventative. We have life to celebrate, and that was our plan after all of THIS was over.


That's all I've got for today. I will post tomorrow about another shining memory from our cancer journey that happened that December... Thank you all again for reading, sharing, commenting and of course donating!!!! <3